i'll be a killer whale when i grow up.

I struggled to find words to name the feelings that flooded through me, but I had no words strong enough to hold them.

For a long moment, I drowned in them

I learned the constellations when I was little. My father likes astronomy. He taught me. At one time, I believed the mythological creatures and objects were truly there, held in place by giant pins. The light points of their configurations, you see. I thought if any of those pins came loose, they would be at the mercy of thin air — and they’d fall to the ground and crush me. So for a couple of years, I’d only go outside on cloudy nights. I decided that would give them something on which to land, other than me.

— The Mercy of Thin Air

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